Julie

Poll #920792 WHo0?
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WHo to take to pin dance??

ah it started out bad
the whole thing with my mom and her accident
i feel so alone in my school now
the teachers arent any help
track sucks ass but im making new freinds..great way to vent too
soo self conscious
some of my freinds are down in the shit hole..and dont even want to climb out
ahh and it all got good for a month..now its over
its horrible when u think something is happening
its worse when u realize it is happening
u know its weird when u first meet someone and u connect soo easily and then its over as fast as it came...worse when u sort
damnit we never even officially went out and im heartbroken about this..

sophmore year sucks.

i need more freinds. i have freinds. just not enough freinds that are truly there for me..damnit

im gonna draw. forget english homework. shes a dumb bitch anyway

turkey bowl was fun
we lost by alot though

SOoooo
that guy that i just met?
im not sure if were going out
because hes been like asking me all these relationship questions and saying stuff like "o i'd never make u do that" and "im a good bf" and stuff likeee well yesterday he was like "hey cutie, whatsup?" and stuff like that... o yea and i was gonna ask him to this dance and he cant because some girl asked him 5 days before he met me haha.. he was like DARNITTTTT some girl already asked me a while ago but dont worry were just freinds and blah blah blah. even if we were going out... if we are? lol but um yea i wouldnt care because they are just freinds. o haha hes also like SOO ARE U Going to the next mixer? then he wants to hang out this friday but i cant see that happening at all lol.
im confused is he doing this to point out that he really likes me

or are we going out...?

WHAT IS GOING ON!!!

so i met my date, well not anymore because he didnt get tickets
but thats ok because he is cool lol. ha...well hes really funny and kinda sarcastic. hes taller then me and hes tan and has black hair, and our personalities and sense of humor are the same lol. hes obsessed with movies and he plays snare. at first i acted like an idiot. as always, it always happens that way. lol buttttt then in the movie
well that was interesting lol
heres the full details lol
mk well anyway ummmm he put his hand on the armrest, i was like i wonder if he wants me to grab it...i didnt know but i thought it'd be interesting to put my arm on the armrest too. hehe nd i did i like slowly inched it up there haha. then our arms are like practically touching but not yet. Then like i think we touched eachothers hands at the same time, then we were playing finger footsie haha then we started linking fingers and playing with eachothers hands. then we were holding hands and he stretched and put his arms around me...then i put my head on his shoulder and he pulled me in close and i grabbed his other hand. lol then one time i moved my head and he asked me if i was ok. lol.. i wasnt even scared to like do any of that stuff usually im like panicking on what to do to even get my hand on the armrest... lol im shy when it comes to this stuff lol. i guess it was because i had nothing to lose, i just met him and i kinda liked him and, i think it like happened on its own cause after i put my arm on the armrest i stopped thinking about it.
weird ey?
then after the movie the 8 of us were walking around haha
didnt get stopped either, it was like 9:30
he was like IM SO COLD!!! im like mee tooo!!!
then we were all talking then hes like how old are you, like 16? im like nah 15 hes like o ok so ur a sophmore... are you all sophmores and i was like yea. then amelia wanted starbucks so we walked through barnes and nobles.. and they kept walking lol then they were going to walk out. and hes like hehe letse walk this way and see if they notice!
so we did and mike was just standing in the middle so he just followed us to the CD section lol. then steve called and was like WHERE ARE YOU GUYS. hes like u retards kept walking into the cold! then amelia came marching in.. and i was talking to everyone else while the other 3 guys walked away talking lol. thenn i had to leave, it was 10 and i said i had to go and hes like o ok umm do you have a numberr or a screen name, and i gave him mine and got his and stuff.
then we talked on the internet later on... idk when to call him but i want to. i hate text messaging but i think i might text him in school.. i just gotta check to make sure he keeps it on vibrate.
lol im still shocked bout the movies because im so freakin shy and how it happened
i guess i need to stop thinking in some situations like that
not all though lol

so tomorrow i meet my date for harvest
nervous? hell yea. lol i hope hes like fun to be around cause then harvest will suck!
and if it does amelia owes me.
so anyway, track starts like monday, and this year i am surprising prepared. i thought that i had only been running 3 miles in forty minutes but then i looked it up on mapquest and it was actually 6 miles!! MUAHAHAHAHAH, that made my day because 3 miles in 40 minutes is bad lol. and ive been doing that everyday for like the past 3 weeks but more like 28-45 minutes a day. yep yep yep
Our coach said we have to do the hills. so im going to practice sprinting up my hill in my yard.i'm just bad at them thats all lol. Today me becca and koren stayed after to run. we were supposed to go like 3 times around the school. but then we only did one? lol koren got tired and ran inside to eat something haha. and then we were like ok lets go around the feild 5 times then the hills 5 times. Well that didnt work either. me and becca ran around the feilds 3 times while koren went up the hill like 5 times (shes a sprinter. but then becca got tired so we had to stop...ehh kinda wanted to keep going because track starts monday but i cant run alone near mercy lol. then we decided to take a break. We went inside and we thought koren was going to the bathroom, but she actually went to the cafeteria haha so becca started homework and then like we only have 10 minutes left, so we finally did 5 hill sprints.
man i think i woulda been better off staying at home and running alone lol

this month will be interesting.
track starts in less then 2 weeks.
My freind amelia wants to go to harvest and the only way she can go is if i go so weee she might hook me up with a junior! then i get to meet these triplets on halloween plus my neighbors french exchange student
but i heard hes ugly so ew whatever lol. and plus he was to tired to come to my sisters halloween party i mean wtf who is to tired to party?!!! lol.
haha at art class last wednesday this guy garrett like..idk i thought he sniffed my paper... but then he was all like.
you have drawing paper.
im like. um yep this is drawing paper.
then hes like but not sketch paper.
im like yea.....then john said
omgg garrett leave her alone
it was really weird and confusing. i dont know even why i put that in here
i think he was mad cause my paper ate more trees. hehehe
wow that class really can make u feel liike u suck at art! lol o well most of them are like way older then me plus they have art everyday all year round... psh unlike me.. man im jealous hahaha im such a nerd
ummm i think this guy likes me... we were talkin and he was like woo lets do a chatroom and invite people. so i was like ok whatever. and i invited kris in and like he was bein a real jerk to him..im like god...really awkward lol..and hes also been sayin all this other stuff but im pretty sure that he likes me but at the same time im not.
lifes confusing. so much more but no one reads this.
so whatever

Wow i cant wait till this summer
because me and my sister and also my cousin are going to go to colorado or amarillo texas and stay on a ranch for a week with like 200 horses!!!
ahhh
i cant waitt
and its just going to be the 3 of us
its going to be so cool
ive never been to texas
my pop pop reeally misses it
he used to live on a cotton farm near amarillo and he used to ride a horse to school
hes such a cowboy ahaha
i cant wait

ugh i dont really like this year
i have like no one in any of my classes
aLOT of homework
and then whenever i try to talk to megan this girl emily is all like changing the subject to draw all the attention towards her
i mean eww i hate attention nags
and shes happy all the time who the fuck is like that!?!
then again shes soo ofreakin lucky to have kristen megan and becca in her classes
which sucks because i am so left out at lunch
i only really can talk to the new girl who sits with us
then my other two freinds lauren and becca are just total party girls
ugh its so annoying. its all they ever talk about!! its to the point where u cant carry on a normal conversation. its just all like small talk

but on the bright side. i have art class yay!! and i get to talk to megan!! yay. me and megan are like twins its so weird.

people think im a stoner?


look guys i know u havent seen me for 2 years but i mean comeon! im not!!
i have no idea why u would ever think that im a stoner
but i can ASSURE U
i am far from it
i never even seen drugs
i dont drink or anything
personally i like to remember the fun i have
i even feel sick from second hand smoke from people walking past me

trust me i am no druggie

personally im strongly aggainst it..
people dont act the same when theyre on drugs
theyre like not themselves and i like people better when theyre not high
its not impressive at all and its quite disgusting and a waste of life
Literally
who even came up with smokin leafs anyway???
seriously
its dumb

if anyone has heard anyone say anything please tell me. like i wont be mad at u and i dont really know what im going to do about this situation.. i dont really know if there is anything to do about it.

omgg i am SOO ADDICTED TO FIREWORKS
since i dont have photoshop OR illustrator
i gotta work with this
and its kinda cool it took me a while to fix up my drawing.. still not done
but here it is so far



now i seriously want a lil whiteboard/tablet thing for a computer itd be soo useful
i know its kind of bad compared to most. but hey haha i just started lol
itll be aWESome in a couple months
hopefully that is

o heres another one that i editeddd weee

compared to this



i wanted to make the fawn black and white and put a blackand white butterfly with it
but im still figuring it out

so today i went to go see illusionist with megan!!!
IT WAS AMAZING! OMDFGFDG I LOVE LOVE LOVE THAT MOVIE GEESEDLFGKD:GDF:G
it was SOOOO GOOD OIMDFG

u peeps
need
too
SEE it
NOW!
ITS SO GOOD GERTOW
the magician was cute when he was younger!

wow.. this past weekend has sucked
some stuff id rather not mention
but anywho
I SAVED A BABY!
from drowning lol
she was playin with bubbles and she tried to pop one that was too far over the edge and she fell but i caught her before she touched the water!
yayy go meee im a BABY SAVER!

You know. you dont realize how different it would be to have one person missing from the dinner table.so like yea my brother just went to hopkins for school and stuff. and now the dinner table is all quiet... and my mom is always tired and grouchy because of the meds she has to take now... its so weird! and now Grace, my really little sister is turning into a bitch! idk what to do its all because of the freinds she hangs out with. gahhh i need to talk to her!!

man.. i need icecream. lol

Im kinda dissappointed
my really close freinds arent in most of my classes
this sucksss!
oh well ill sit with them at lunch and make more freinds
no biggyy
i still wish they were in my classes though
GAH
i cant wait until art starts
i must sound like a nerd but seriouslyyyy
and i cant wait for mr. jays art classes to start either
gahhhh i need to go draw
im hyper... WOO cookies and icecream for lunch!!!
ok be back soon

U08: city schools are dropping their passing standard
U08: or lowering
D4zu: really
U08: so pretty much u can pass with like 30%
Du: lol retards as president....
UnBLx08: no its o'malley
D4u: no i mean
D4ru: that will happen
Dzu: if we keep up
D4rtzu: like that
Unx08: yea hopefully no one in the city will become president
D4ru: hehe bush is one thing
Du: bur thats worse
U8: nahh bush is pretty good if you ask me
Du: o_O
D4u: u republican??
D4: well
U8: yep
Du: he was kinda forced to do stuff
Ux08: yea
D4rk N1kk4tzu: hes not taht bad i jus like to laugh at "nuclar"
D4u: XD
Unp08: bush is just not putting up with shit
Un08: lol yea
Un8: hes from texas all right
Unp8: thats how my pop pop says it
Unx08: its the accent haha
Du: ahaaa
Ux08: lol but like
U08: when u think about it
Du: ?
Unx08: the war is doing good because for one
Un08: sadam husien is out
D4u: yeh
Un08: he was murdering people by the second
UnLx08: and like
Un08: i know they didnt find proof of nuclear bombs
UnpLx08: but he also went into hiding before the war began
UBLx08: so he has something to hide or be afraid of
zu: yeah
08: our embassey's have been bombed and blown up down there by the terrorist and militia down in the middle east
Dtzu: yeh
BLx08: clinton didnt do anything
x08: and now bush is
BLx08: sorryyyy if im like gettin carried away
u: and last year there was an attack in britain
Lx08: but like
4tzu: XD
x08: yea
zu: u bush lover u!!!!
UnpLx08: and the terrorist attack we almost had
tzu: thats ok
08: haha yeaa
x08: it just makes me maad how the press kept asking and pushing towards the idea of war before it started
UnLx08: then they act like hes a villan after he takes their advice
Dzu: haha
Dtzu: good point
Unx08: seriously like i remember every 5 seconds
Un8: theyd be like
D4zu: war!
08: ARE U GOING TO WAR MR, PRESIDENT!
D4tzu: yeah i remem that
Du: lol
Ux08: and hed be like idk if its necessary
U: and then hes like fine well go to war
tzu: u make them sound ALMOST as retarded as they are
k N1zu: iits like this
UnLx08: THIS NEXT IN. THAT BASTARD> GEORGE W> BUSH is GOING TO WAR
D4u: AWE YUU GOOWGin TO WHAH MR PEZIDMT???
ULx08: hahaha!!
D4rkzu: i hate the press as you can see
U08: yea me too omgfgdfgd,k
Dtzu: lol
U8: i just wish they could give us the facts without bias
D4u: yeah
Dzu: thats pretty fucking hard to do tho
Ux08: yea i know
Un08: like u wanna hear something?
D4rtzu: and were just ignorant masses to them
D4zu: yeah sure
Ux08: they wouldnt shutup about the isreali's bombing hezbollah. yett theyve only mentioned once how hezbollah bombed childrens soccer feilds while theyre on it
Dzu: wow
Dzu: yeh
Du: BIAS
Un8: yea
D4u: lol and they keep talking about the CEASEFIRE
U08: yea thats bullshit
D4u: that was supposed to have gone up like a week ago
ULx08: its not going to happen
D4u: exactly
ULx08: i wish it would though
U8: but its not
D4tzu: medias jus covering for them
UnLx08: yea
UBLx08: see this is whats going to happen
UCtaBLx08: isreal will go ALL OUT on hezbollah
D4u: with no disregard
UnBLx08: yea
D4rzu: heh self defence
D4ru: right...
D4u: theyve got more stuff
D4u: more lke self satisfactory overkill
D4u: XD now i sound biased
Unp08: yea well they gotta have it
Unp08: no one likes them in the middle east
D4u: haha who???
D4rzu: bush
UnBLx08: if they didnt have that. then theyd be gone
D4tzu: nobody likes him in britain....
Unprx08: yea i dont know what countries like us anymore
D44tzu: japan likes us jus not our beef
D4zu: ummm
D4kk4tzu: germany is still happy to make nudie flicks i dont want
D4u: nor anyone else
D4k4tzu: XD
D4tzu: they scare me
D4u: over there
Dzu: jus nudists walking down the alleyways naked
D4u: HEIZEN
D4rk N1kk4tzu: jk
Un08: yea thats sick
Unp08: haha
Unx08: germany is weird
U08: like drugs are legal there

So on friday i finally seen people from MHS!! man i havent seen them since the last day of school! we went cosmic bowling and we were retarded haha
then on saturday holly called and i spend the night over her house! that was fun we stayed up till like 5
andd now i am so tired omg!! i didnt run because i feel sick from all the junk food ive been eating from like cosmic bowling and holly's
soooo i have xc tryouts tomorrow. im really really nervous! lol. god if im on the team i am going to suck!!!! Oh well.. least i WILL be in shape for indoor... unlike last time. ughhh i wish i would have decided this about a FREAKING MONTH AGO. but no, i didnt. oh well.
tiredd... going to sleeepppp

whoa i am screweeedd
i decided to try out for XC next week
god i am going to die. i havent ran in like forever!!!
SHITTTTTTTTT.
im gonna run for like 45 minutes today or something. cause i dont know how to map out miles
well if i compleetely stink and the coach cuts me or whatever im just gonig to ask to be manager so i can be in shape for track.
any tips for survival?!

drawing i did last night
its kinda from my head... i didnt really have anything too look off
thats whyy the head is likee cartoony looking...



the band on her hair is a shadow, and nottt a hair band incase anyone thought it was lol
yep yep yep

i hate this. i saved this draft so pretend that i wrote this yesterday


GOD DAMNIT!!
i hate this heat because im not aloud to run in it!!
i dont think i would even if i was aloud...
gahh!!
sooo Im riding my bike till its either cooler or not humid
soo at least my heart and lungs will be in shape for track and stuff


YESTERDAY: Retreat

my mom has a way of breaking the news less then 10 hours before thing happens. GREAT! I was like shit im not going to know anyone! cause well, how would I? i dont go to saint johns and im not freinds with anyone in my sunday school class. they all left! but when i get there, theres about 10 cute boys. ok correction HOTT boys. im sitting there like shit shit shit shit shit (hey im never around boys anymore i get nervous ok?! lol) then my freind becca comes in! i didnt know she went to saint johnS! (by the way this is a different becca, i didnt really know her that well before this) and i met her frein rosalee she was pretty nice. and there was one girl named bridgette, and anna and rachel. they were all nice. the boys were kinda annoying. but they kept flirting with all the girls. like we were all sitting under a tree talking and they all came over and sat around us lol. thennn we were in the living room thing and the bathrooms across the hall. a boy cameout and sat and stared at us for like 3 minutes straight. it was so weird? we were kinda freaked out... loll... o yea opmdfgmdlkfg they took there shirts off when they were playin basketball... we were like omgggg!! o well one guy made room for me on the couch.. that was kinda nice.. anddd that same boyy winked and waved when he left.. hmm.... should be interesting next time i see him.